Saturday, 18 December 2010

seeing and *whosp!* ~ lost

seharusnya yah aku nulis ini post tanggal 8 Desember kemaren, sehari pas sebelum aku dapet angka 18 ku di dunia yang gelap ini *ah opo seeh
tapi apa daya sepertinya internet sedang tak bersahabat http://www.emocutez.com
jadi yah hari ini pas internetnya bisa dan aku mau nge post something lah buat menghilangkan kesuntukan ckck mumpung lagi semangat buat nge posting nih http://www.emocutez.com hihi


Dewasa ini yah kawan-kawan, kita pasti pernah dan PASTI lah pasti pasti *iyooooo http://www.emocutez.com pernah memiliki something or somewhere or any special in life lahh.. yang pacar yang hewan kesayangan yang gantungan kunci kesayangan yang hape kesayangan yang orang kesayangan dan semua yang serba kesayangan lahhh..
Pokoknya selalu menemani dan lengkeeeeeet ckck
Terus tau2 si something itu hilang dan nggak ada lagi buat kita, yang notabene pergi meninggalkan lah..So,
what do you feels now?
Yaaaa si Lost itu yang ada, Lost lost oooh lost..
Rasanya sepi, nggak ada yang nemenin, nggak ada yang diajak berbagi dan itu yang aku rasakan deh hari itu
http://www.emocutez.com

Oke.. frontal aja deh sekarang http://www.emocutez.com

On those date December, 8th 2010 i'd broke up with my hunny, my soulmater and i usually call him ayank..
We had been together about 3 monts and we had do anything together..
Just simple of little problem, and its end so vicious..
I desperated http://www.emocutez.com , i crying http://www.emocutez.com and i dont wanna miss him already :(

But it just late with the cover of my fault who made him won't took a trust in me..
I lost everything..
I lost anything in any ways we've done


On the December, 9th 2010. >> THE DAY http://www.emocutez.com
yeah thosee date i'd have my 18
and i'd lost something who nearest by me..
http://www.emocutez.com *nahan nangis
I'd got everything from my pal on those date, from you especially but i lost You

dan aku masih berada di keterpurukan kehilangan itu http://www.emocutez.com selama sekitar 3 harian.. yaaah it's fair lah untuk kehilangan http://www.emocutez.com

it's feels like you dont have any power to life anymore without him *lebay and this is my 3rd chances with the same case : i am the hurter
it sounds like that i am to excessive to face this situation if i reminds my 18 http://www.emocutez.com zz
firstly i couldn't take the decision (act my decision) at all, but when i angry and he just calm down in a text (siigh although i dunno what the real behind those texting) i can pretendind that i can calming down my self.. an it's so painful inside here (heart) and my head http://www.emocutez.com
I love you, but i know that loving someone doesn't mean that i must to having that someone, it caused by we dont has any match poin anymore or on of those couple dont loving each other anymore and it could hurting anyway.. So i got the truth that :
I Love You
but it will
become more hurting if i still holding you
and you maybe better and happier if you're not with me
*sory nulisnya kecil2 yah ;)

but i dont know, until i wrote this posting while i try to forgetting anything about us, its takes me to get deeply loving you :( and it just hurting me http://www.emocutez.com
and i think it just take a little temporary like yo've said to me, and then *bhusp!* i lost you after all :)
and then on Monday i can face the truth well after some advice from my mom :) thank's mom

naaaah udahan ye, ni adek ku udah nggregeli mau makek leptopnya http://www.emocutez.com

laen kali aku posting lagi deh :D
dadaaaaa readers http://www.emocutez.com

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